Little by little

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Little by little, with every small step,
I am starting to forget you.
Soon all the memories will go from my mind,
To be slowly replaced with the new.
For such a long while, you made me so sad.
We argued all the time.
But with every bad word and all of the crap,
I’d still wish that you were mine.
Your familiar smile and the sound of your voice,
Are so distant it’s hard to recall,
And those few precious moments of happy times that we shared?
I have nearly forgotten them all.
You broke my heart in the most crushing way,
For a while I still will cry.
Knowing that you didn’t want me at all
Makes me sad deep down inside.
Slowly now my heart will start to mend,
As I lose all memories of you.
It still makes me sad that we never will be,
But…

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A thought a day

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I thought of you today.

Not for long but, it still mattered.

I suppose it always will.

I thought of you today.

As I sat looking through a window,

Raindrops trickled down the glass.

The tears I cried for you.

You always liked the rain.

I thought of you today.

Of what you may be doing.

Are you happy?

You always were.

I thought of you today.

I thought I saw you today.

It wasn’t you.

I thought of you today.

Do you think of me?

I’d like to think you do,

That you still care.

I thought of you today.

While I was alone.

I thought of where you may be.

Are you lonely too?

I thought of you today.

I think of you every day.

I know I always will.

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That moment with no words

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That moment, where years slowly passed,
And we knew no time.
That moment where I belonged to you,
And knew that you were mine.
That moment where I used no words,
To express the feelings I could not say.
That moment where I’d feel close to you,
In each and every way.
That moment I could not describe,
The feeling within my heart.
That moment built through years of trust,
Through years of being apart.
Using no words I allow you to see,
The delightful moment of knowing truth.
That moment of knowing the beautiful things.
The things that I feel for you.
That moment when the heart knew no time,
Through great distance and a patient wait.
That moment when we came together,
The moment we left to fate.
That moment where there was no time,
No words. No movement. Just us.
That moment when we breathed no words,

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Again

Ten years have gone by so quickly for us

Would you believe we’re here again?

The start of something new on the back of all the old 

We’re going to try and trust each other

Get to know the people we have become

Can we do it this time? 

Make it through to what we both want?

Last night was spontaneous and lovely

A rare moment for us

An example of how it could be?

Let us wait and see

No past judgements 

Counting

I’m tired of counting 

Counting the days

Counting the hours

Counting on people

Counting for people

Counting what’s left

Counting what I’ve done

Counting how far to go

Counting how far I’ve come

Counting my money earned

Counting the money spent

Counting what I have

Counting what I’ve lost

Counting my steps forward

Counting my steps back

Counting my friends

Counting my enemies

Counting my moments

Counting my memories

Counting the minutes

Until I count my last breath

Counting what I have missed

By counting all this

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A tear lit by the crystal light
Grazed my cheek, as I no longer fight.
No longer willing to fight for you
You made it clear that I meant nothing at all.
I was no lover of yours, not even a friend.
And throughout the acquaintance you’d just pretend.
Were you always so cruel and disregarding of me?
So blinded by adoration that I never could see
I always thought I meant something to you
It’s no good me trying, there is nothing I can do.
I finally give in and allow my tears to fall.
No longer wishing that I could change it all.
I don’t want to change myself, and make you want me.
I am who I am, some one you never could see.
Too proud of myself to give in to you
All that you said was completely untrue.
I’d beat myself up everyday
Mentally scarred in every way.
I hung on your words with my whole heart
And they soon caused me to fall apart.
As each tear falls my hope slowly dies
Deciding to move on makes me calm inside.
With each tear that falls, I fall away from you
And I will slowly begin to feel brand new.